How Do I Trust This…

Patience is one of those things that you only gain through experience. At this moment I am relearning things I thought I had learned. I am reevaluating the things I thought I knew, only to find that I have a new perspective on old views. I am currently learning the power of “Letting Go.” I am learning to let go of past situations, people who no longer serve my best good, thoughts, behaviors, and my fears. However, letting go is a process and I have found that letting go sometimes requires you to trust, and be willing to embrace something new and unknown prior to the release.

Today, I am letting go of what I call my rear-view. You know we tend to try to navigate our lives looking back, but we cannot proceed forward looking in our rear-view mirrors. Have you ever noticed that your rear-view mirror is much smaller than your front window? The reason that it’s smaller is because you have little to no reason to see what is behind you. Our front window is much bigger because the things that are in front of us are much larger than what is behind us. The only time we need to look back is to park or reflect. Yet many times we attempt to drive our lives looking in the rear-view. Isn’t it funny that there is a caution on the mirror that states: CAUTION: objects-in-mirror are closer than they appear. This means that those things that you thought that you had dealt with, gotten over, and left behind are not really that far behind you at all. However, it’s in moving forward and having new experiences that we even find out how close your past really is.

I am currently finding out that I have yet to know what trust is. Yeah, that thing that requires that you are patient and that you embrace the unknown. See, I was only thinking of trust in terms of being in a relationship and trusting that the other person would honor their word or action. But, no! Trust is not only the belief in someone doing what they said. It’s about having enough faith that even if they don’t do what they said that you still know what you know. Trust is often times not even about the other person. Trust is intimate. Trust has more to do with you and your perspective on any given situation than it does with what someone else will or will not do. Trust is about letting go of what you previously thought to be true and finding out what is really true for this moment. Oh, trust is deep!

What I am finding out is that trust, which I’ve always thought had more to do with me than anyone else, is about not surrendering my power to someone else. What I am learning is that trust is about being able to walk through a matter knowing without a shadow of a doubt, that what I know is what I know. Trust is about having faith in a situation that looks so bleak that the average person would give up, but you proceed because you’re certain that it is not what you “think” to be true, but rather that you know. Trust is knowing that when the objects of the past seem so close that they appear to be present, you can keep moving forward because you know you have already overcome. And to look back would only hinder your future. So, when in doubt, keep your eyes on the prize.

So, today I acknowledge that some things are an illusion. That everything that I may be thinking may not really exist. I must remember that the things I have asked for, that have appeared, are for me and must not doubt them. I must know that I have been prepared to deal with them. And if I need anything else, it will be provided just as I need it. I have to know this to be true, not just think it. I must be willing to be patient even when a thing seems as if it’s bleak or not at all working in my favor. I am learning how to trust that my God is still able to work all things out for the best of all that are concerned. And, I don’t have to see it to believe it. I just need to know that it is, and it will be.